Where does time go?

Well it has only been a week since I flew into Philly to come back to New Jersey but it feels like it was much longer ago than that. Except I also feel like I haven't accomplished much this week. That is frustrating. I need to stop treading water and get ahead!

Being back in Michigan was more lovely than I had even hoped for. There is nothing like being alone and not having anyone or anything to worry about but myself. It is a luxury that I don't get too often. (I remember having that way back in the past and now I wonder what I did with all the free time I must have had on my hands....I suppose I did more volunteer work than I find time for now. I remember tutoring adult illiteracy twice and week and doing charity runs....oh well those times will come again.) Anyway back to Michigan....it was so peaceful. Waking up in the morning and throwing on some clothes to go walking. Tree lined roads and early morning sun. The woodsy smell of autumn leaves. The twittering of various birds. The hush. And then in the afternoon wandering the town streets, acting like a tourist yet enjoying my native status! Funny thing was I so enjoyed my time alone and yet I found myself wishing to show things to the kids, to say things to the hubby....silent ghosts that walk everywhere with me. I am so thankful for them, more so than I think I realize on a daily basis.

Being back home as made me wish that I could live closer to my family of origin. Mom and Dad are getting older, it has become so apparent. I wish that I was nearby so I could help them more without appearing to be helping too much. I know that they value their independence and yet at times they need help. To be able to provide them with that would be invaluable to me. I have to resign myself to getting home when I can and calling often.